It Will Come To Pass

The vision, the vision is Jesus.  Obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.  The vision is an army of young people.  You see bones, I see an army.  And they are FREE from materialism.  They laugh at 9 to 5 with the prisons.  They could eat caviar on Monday and crust on Tuesday, they wouldn't even notice.  They know the meaning of the matrix, the way the West was won.  They are mobile like the wind.  They belong to the nations.  They need no passport.  People write their addresses in pencil, and wonder at their strange existence.  They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting, the dirty and the dying.  What is the vision?  The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.  It makes children laugh and adults angry.  They gave up the game of minimun integrity long ago to reach for the stars.  It scorns the good and strains for the best.  It is dangerously pure.  Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation.  It loves people away from their suicidal leads, their Satan gangs.  This is an army that will lay down it's life for the cause.  A million times a day yet soldiers choose to lose, that they might one day win the great well-dialed... faithful sons and daughters....  Such heros are as radical on Monday morning as they were Sunday night.  They don't need fame from names.  Instead they grieve quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again, "common"... and THIS is the sound of the underground.  The whisper of history in the making, foundations shaking, revolutionaries dreaming once again.  Conspirecy is breathing.  THIS is the sound of the underground.  And the army is disciplined.  Young people who beat their bodies into submission.  Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms.  For me to live as Christ and die His game.  Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes.  Winners... Mardars...  who can stop them?  Can hormones hold them back?  Can failure succeed?  Can fear scare them or death kill them?  Oh and the generation prays like a dying man with groans beyond talking, with warrior cries, no fear or tears but great barrol loads of laughter.  Waiting, watching, 24/7, 365, whatever it takes that will be it.  Breaking the rules.  Shaking mediocrity from it's cozy little hide.  Laying down the rights and the precious little roams.  Laughing at labels and fasting essentials.  The advestisors can not mold them.  Hollywood cannot hold them.  Peer pressure is POWERLESS despite the result of latenight parties, before the cop car comes.  They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive inside.  On the outside, they hardly care.  They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide.  When they surrender their image or popularity, they would lay down their very lives.  Swap seats with the man on death road, guilty as hell... a throne for an electric chair, with blood and sweat and many tears.  Sleepless nights and fruitless days they prayed, as if it all depends on God.  And they live as if it all depends on them.  Their DNA chooses Jesus.  He breathes out, they breathe in.  They're subconscious things, they have blood transfusion with Jesus.  Their words make demons scream and shot themselves.  Don't you hear them coming?  Herald the wierdos, summon the losers and the freaks.  Herecome the frightened and the forgotten, with fire in their eyes.  They walk tall and trees applaud.  Skyscapers bow, mountains are warped by these children of another dimension... Their prayers summon the hounds of Heaven, and emboat the ancient dream of Eden.  And this vision will be.  It will come to pass.  It will come easily.  AND IT WILL COME SOON!  How do I know?  Because this is the longing of creation itself.  The groaning of the Spirit and the very dream of God.  My tomorrow is His today.  My distant hope is His 3D.  And my feet will whisper faithless prayer in hopes of thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking graves.  AMEN!!!Countless angels, heroes of the faith and Christ Himself.  He is the original dreamer.  The ULTIMATE WINNER, gaurenteed. 
-Jake Hamilton
THIS HAS BECOME MY PRAYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love note #1

All because you want me God, I come...  I want you too.  More than ANYTHING, I want you too.  More than anyone, I want you God.  Forgive me for times when I have fogotten you and wondered away.  Thank you for rescueing me, thank you for coming.  Thank you that you did not give up on me or throw me aside.  Thank you for your faithfulness and mercy that is new every morning.  No body else is like that God.  Only you!!!  I run into your arms with joy.  I smile at you God.  I know you smile at me too.  Let's be together Lord.  Seal what you are doing in my heart Oh God.  May the seeds of your word come in my heart.  Let the grounds be soft and you can be planted in me.  Let your truth grow inside of me and flourish in my life so that I can bear fruit from your spirit.  Increasing and increasing in me.  Increase inside of me God.  INCREASE!

Redefining "Normal"

Well, this is it!!!  Yesterday I quit my job, no big deal.  I leave for Africa in exactly 21 days and I am BEYOND excited.  September 29th could not come any sooner.  I am so ready to go and get wrecked in His love, in His presence.  It's not even the fact that i'm going to Africa... it's the fact that God has placed Africa on my heart since I was a little girl and it's finally coming to reality... I get to go where I know God is leading me and I know that something great will come out of it.  I'm writing this, sitting in my room just soaking and I can't help but tear up.  This new journey that I am starting... and I get to be me.  Right from the get go.  I get to be exactly who He created me to be...  Ashley, with absolutely NO strings attached.  As crazy as it sounds, I'm excited to not wear make-up, not do my hair, wear the simplist wardrobe and just find the heart of God in raw and true worship!!!  I'm excited to chase after the calling that He has placed on my life.  I am ready to lay EVERYTHING down at His feet.  As a matter of fact, I AM laying down everything at His feet.  It was not too long ago that God has taken me through a process of complete surrender.  He has helped me give up my family, my friends, my job and even my church.  As hard as this all was, it wasn't letting them "go"... it was just letting God have control.  I think He placed it in me knowing that I would minister in the nations for my life.  You wonder how it's so "easy" to leave home... but this is my redefined "normal".  You might think I sound crazy, a girl with a love for red light districts, back alleys and dumpsters, the widows and orphans, street kids, and warzones.  Some of you might think I need a new definition of the word "normal".  But the truth is... it all comes down to me being passionate.  I am SO passionate for the things of His heart.  I'm so tired of living in my own comfort zones, knowing that God is always removing me from them anyways!!  He is placing the things of His heart on mine.  I can't even explain what it feels like to know God's heart.  He shares His heart with the people He trusts... and to know what He is thinking when He's thinking it, and how he feels when His heart is breaking for the things of this world... I don't want anything else but to be the one He trusts.  To be able to go when He says go!!!  No longer is normal just sitting in my every day life, normal is about doing the things that I am passionate about, the things that He has placed on my heart.  If revolutions start with one, we are a whole lot of ones.  Choose me Lord... let me be the one you use.  You use a willing heart and I say that I am open to wherever you lead.  I am chasing after that same love that He showers all over me every day.  I want to love people like that!!!  That love that completely wrecked my life and changed who I am... I want to spread that around this world and watch God take the reign.  I am confident in who I am when I encounter His love.  And when He's by my side I'm fearless.  There is no doubt in my mind that I am not walking in the direction that He is leading.  As "scary" as it is to go to Africa... I really am not scared.  I'm ready to stand up for justice, for peace and believe for transformation.  For me, this journey so far has been about trusting in Him and knowing that He always remains faithful and this is just the beginning.
21 DAYS!!!!